Goshen

Still

Most nights my roommates, and sometimes myself, find ourselves in bed at a time my nineteen year old self would have called me a loser for. And if I'm being honest sometimes my twenty-seven year old self does now. I guess it's part of being a responsible adult, something I avoid looking in the eye in hopes of squeezing out what's left of my acceptable kidulthood. Though I'm usually cooped up in my bedroom on these nights I've come to enjoy them. I putter around the room, look up songs, paint my nails, read, research my current obsessions and more often than not binge watch whatever I have queued up on Netflix. Though there are times I wish we would stay up until all hours of the night, I am grateful for that perfect moment when the house is still and I truly relax.

Changes

My best friend is moving to Arizona in three days. THREE DAYS. Besides my initial mental breakdown (Drea knows what I'm talking about) I've been holding in the tears pretty well...so far. "Arizona's a state away, Provo airport flies out to Mesa, we can text, call, email!" This has been my mantra for basically the past month and will probably have to continue well into the next few months at least.

Even though I'm incredibly sad and we've ignored any sort of hug or goodbye I'm trying to take some good out of the situation and by trying I mean grasping for any possible good outcome. What I've come up with is being inspired by the huge change that's on the way for their family. Change is scary, terrifying if you're me, but living in fear is not living! With my new found inspiration I will make an effort to put plans in motion and make things happen.

Imma miss ya fren.

That Time of Year

Even though the word ‘resolution’ is synonymous with failure in my mind, I’ve decided to make just one for 2014. Something attainable, that I probably won’t consider that difficult until I put it into action.

NO PHONES AT THE TABLE

I can’t even recall the last time I’ve gone out to eat with friends or family when a phone has been in someone’s hand, mine included. And for what? Most of the people I text are sitting at the table with me and there’s no reason to check Twitter or Instagram when I could be talking and laughing with those right in front of me. I also didn’t realize how rude it looked or how ignored friends felt when trying to talk to me until I was on the other side of the phone. 

I don’t like the power technology and our phones have to grab our attention away from those that matter most so with that in mind I will leave the phone in my bag or pocket while out with friends or family and I encourage all of us to do the same!

2014